Christianity has lots of negative spaces. Spaces where the questions end and the answers never really begin. Where the encouragement stops without any real life-changing transformation.
The space between tragedy and God’s will.
Growing up around Christians, I heard it all. The questions, the encouragement, the urgings to pray, the pleading to stand, to keep the faith, to never give up hope.
But as an adult, the problems I had were real. Too real, it would seem, to be helped by anything I learned growing up in church.
When something bad happened, asking Christians for help was like shaking the magic 8 ball toy I had as a kid.
Ask again later.
Signs point to ‘yes’.
No one had a good answer, and the ones they gave really didn’t help at all.
And that’s where my relationship with God started. I was saved when I was young, but I knew in my heart that there had to be more.
I asked myself questions like this one:
If we claim to have such a personal relationship with the Creator of the universe through Jesus, shouldn’t we be able to explain things in our lives better than drawing a random answer from a hat?
I thought that we should.
So I started seeking God. I wanted to know Him. I wanted to understand His ways.
Shortly after, I received the Holy Spirit.
I felt nothing when I walked away that night, but things changed for me. Nothing you could see or even feel, but something in my spirit changed completely.
Have you ever tuned your radio, and landed one number off the frequency?
You can still hear what’s being said, but it’s fuzzy and not everything comes through.
That’s what happened. It was like someone just turned the knob one click in the right direction, and suddenly everything was loud and clear.
The more I learned, the more I saw these negative spaces. The places in Christianity where people didn’t have any apparent clarity or understanding. The issues that Christians were dealing with that they never seemed to know how to overcome.
Over the years, I discovered that God’s purpose for my life is all about exposing these negative spaces; to shine light in the dark places of Christianity. After all, where there is light there is life and that is what God wants for us.
He wants us to know Him, to understand His will and to live the life Jesus paid to give us. A life of victory in Him. He wants us to walk in the light, as He is in the light.
“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that.” MKL Jr.
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